Port Angeles Harbor

Ghosts

Curl



Kaua'i

Green Lake


Fort Lawton Cemetery


Whidbey

Snoqualmie


The Night Life


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Deception


Sobriety

The Conversation

Windy

Searching

The Bronze Iris

The Lazurus Heart

Sauk River

Lisa

Leaf, Stone

Deception Falls

Catchlight


Surface Tension


Joie de Vivre

One of the most beautiful aspects of this life is the joy of deep friendship.

Timebound

Happy

Mirror

Home, Hearth, Heart

Making Plans

Lion in Winter

Ink

Eternity

Point of Entry

Tenderness

Tea for One

Heat

Leaving

Angles

Promise

Flow

Curious



This guy landed on my camera at Paradise (Mount Rainier) early one morning.

Zobeide

"From there, after six days and seven nights, you arrive at Zobeide, the white city, well exposed to the moon, with streets wound about themselves as in a skein. They tell this tale of its foundation: men of various nations had an identical dream. They saw a woman running at night through an unknown city; she was seen from behind, with long hair, and she was naked. They dreamed of pursuing her. As they twisted and turned, each of them lost her. After the dream they set out in search of that city; they never found it, but they found one another; they decided to build a city like the one in the dream. In laying out the streets, each followed the course of his pursuit; at the spot where they had lost the fugitive's trail, they arranged spaces and walls differently from the dream, so she would be unable to escape again…

New men arrived from other lands, having had a dream like theirs, and in the city of Zobeide, they recognized something of the streets of the dream, and they changed the positions of arcades and stairways to resemble more closely the path of the pursued woman and so, at the spot where she had vanished, there would remain no avenue of escape.The first to arrive could not understand what drew these people to Zobeide, this ugly city, this trap.” Link

Storm in Gold Bar


Storm in Gold Bar, WA.

Joy

Vigilance

Understanding

We decide our own truths, which we call “beliefs,” and knit them into a story, an internal narrative we repeat to ourselves endlessly, silently. A self-referential Möbius strip of perception. A closed loop. Then we empower these “beliefs” with an unjustified culturally referenced reverence.

We deceive and seduce ourselves in order to spare our ego, our fragile self-construct, from what feels like the imminent threat of complete destruction - a primal threat. A threat to survival.

But I didn’t die when my wife repeated to me, without any comic irony, something inappropriate I said at a party. Hearing my own words replayed out of context was suddenly embarrassing, but not fatal. And so I advance unmasked.

I struggle valiantly against truths about myself which are self evident to all onlookers as if these ideas were essential to life itself, when the actual truth is that to be disabused of illusions is a liberation that opens enormous possibility.

Unfortunately, most of these struggles occur below the waterline – deep in the unconscious – with the result that after an awakening, a comeuppance, a satori, a slapped face, I am often flabbergasted that I ever saw, and lived in, such a stilted, crippled world.

In this way, I am so typical, so unextraordinary, so pedestrian. But that takes me back to square one – it’s another variation of the same problem for the ego.

Our definitions of truth and beauty are determined by what we decide to value, and revolves around the need for recognition and validation.

The soul’s deepest need is to be understood.

Luxury

Temperence

Hope

Peace

Honor Thyself

I once read a comment by Miles Davis, who once said that your home should be filled with the things you love, all the beauty it will possibly hold. That statement was a bolt of lightning to me, because I had always regarded home in a more utilitarian light. Viscerally, I understood that he was exactly right, because home is a refuge, a sanctuary from the onslaught of indignities that is “life.”

Around the same time, I was studying at Buffalo State College, and Dr. Joan Roberts, in an “Intro to Poetry” class, exhorted all of us to honor our work. To be serious about it, keep a notebook; don’t be quick to discard the things we were displeased with, be patient with ourselves, and revel in the process of learning. Another thunderbolt for me. It is not possible to build a healthy sense of self and relative surety in the world if I fail to honor myself and my efforts.

In 1988 I began painting and writing poetry and making better photographs, and these influences moved me to begin taking all of those efforts seriously for the first time. And with the idea of creating art for my living space - art that is both soliloquy and solace.

Lantern